Blessings in Chronic Pain

I have been wanting to say: I didn’t make it to dinner with you guys, or to the party after the event, because I was in horrible physical pain. But I was ashamed to admit to my pain. You might judge me and think I was lazy.

Recently, I have decided to let people know that I am not physically very well. And I have heard from strangers who are grateful to know they aren’t walking the pain path alone.

For most of my life, I thought I was clumsy. My legs and feet seemed to have a mind of their own and they turned the wrong way and bam! I would have broken toes, or a sprained ankle, or crushed foot bones.

My veins are bizarrely hidden or even worse, they have twice formed dangerous blood clots. One blood clot cut off blood flow to my colon. Fortunately, I went to the hospital quickly and lost only a small part of my colon.

My teeth are literally moving targets. The tissue around my teeth isn’t as strong as it should be. I have had dental nightmares that are unbelievable.

I have joints that sublex, meaning spasm and dislocate, spontaneously. The bones in my neck have moved around to the point that it’s a wonder I can hold my head up. Some mornings, I have to get my jaw unlocked before I can speak.

I spent nearly six figures on alternative health treatments in less than five years, only to realize that old-school anesthetics work best for me. Everyone with collagen and immune system disorders is slightly different, so if naturopathy and acupuncture worked for you, great. But not for me.

Several of my relatives have these disorders far worse than I do!

However, I have found many gifts in having chronic physical pain. First, I take absolutely nothing for granted. For me, teaching is my reason for being on Earth. To teach all day is a great gift, even if it means I will hurt worse that night and the next day or two.

Second, I have learned to pace and prioritize; my project management skills have become excellent.

Because I must be judicious with my energies and efforts, I have become quite focused. I refuse to attend a meeting that doesn’t have an agenda or isn’t absolutely necessary.

I am liberated from any temptation to chase after fame and in fact, I don’t want to be famous. Not one teensy bit. I only wish to finish my greater work before I leave here.

I appreciate those rare moments that I forget about pain. Lately I’ve had more of those moments, so I am going to focus on gratitude for that.

Life is still worth living, even when chronic pain is ever present. I have learned to trust that this suffering must surely be in the service to my soul’s growth, or the growth of another, even though I won’t realize the details until I return to Heavenly home.

I still have living to do. So do you! I know this is true because you and I are still here!


Susanne Wilson is a scientifically authenticated medium, and an author and teacher.
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11 thoughts on “Blessings in Chronic Pain”

  1. God bless you! I’m Jammie and I’m suffering from a very rare disease, only the second one in the United States with It! It has made me strong and be an inspiration for others! Praying for you, I also have a story I’m writing for others to see!

  2. Thankyou for sharing . It makes me realise that i too am careful where i go and spend my time, migraines can lay me flat and ate triggered more now or more easily since the loss of my daughter. It is good and great to be selective. I hope your day is peaceful andvthankyou again ??
    Sue Lemure

    • Hi Sue,
      I have known loved ones in spirit to place their spirit hands on the head of their Earthly loved ones to give love and healing when they have migraine. Of course they enjoy being with us more when we feel well! But how nice to know your daughter is there with you.

  3. You have amazing determination and love for others. We are all so lucky to have you and I’m so glad that you’ve found something that works for you. Always remember what has helped me through dark times: “Eat a live toad first thing in the morning and nothing worse can happen to you all day”. Works for me every time!! XO Terri

  4. I am touched by your condition I had migraines almost daily. If a doctor told me we have a surgery that will either cure you or kill you I would have said do it now! I do wonder why with your gifts you can’t get spiritual help. God bless!
    I do wonder

    • Sorry to hear about the migraines. The illness is nirmally in service to the growth of one’s soul. To tell a victim they would “heal when they learn the lesson” (and I know you aren’t saying that) it gis a misunderstanding that we are forever beings of light. It can take time, and not just one lifetime. Pain can present in many ways over many lifetimes. And sometimes a person’s illness is in the service of the growth of the soul of someone close to them…Or in service to breakthroughs in medicine that won’t happen for a decade.

  5. Thanks for the “living we all have to do” and your spunk and service through it. The Master reminds us: “We can do all things in Him who strengthens us” . blessings on your journey and gifts shared with the world.

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